What an honor to be used by God. If I would have know 6 yrs ago the ride I would be on today, I wouldn’t have believed it to be true. Being as introverted as I am, and always shying away from others and situations, getting to where I am today was not the easiest. Some things are still hard to get through. I loathed talking in front of others. Even in small settings. I still til this very day, would rather be in the back of the room instead of the front. So many times I have tried to run, but EVERY TIME the Holy Spirit has stopped me.
I remember one situation where I was at a leadership conference and every one was talking and engaging, except me. I was later driving home with the person I came with, and she so nonchalantly said,” I need you to talk and speak up more.” I couldn’t believe it. She then followed that statement with a scripture.
“Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you” -Jeremiah 1:8
Wow! That little bit of truth so gracefully summed it up for me. I wasn’t just not talking, I was afraid. Afraid of what may come out of my mouth and possibly sound dumb. Or was it because I was afraid and wondering if I would sound smart enough? She continued the scripture.
V.9 “The Lord reached out and touched my mouth and said to me, “I have put my words in your mouth.”
As irritated as I was with that comment she made, God used her. He was telling me, I don’t need to worry about what will come out of my mouth because the Holy Spirit will give me the words to say. Because of my fear and my worry of what people would think about me I would shrink. And so often label my self as an introvert. One day in prayer God spoke to me. He let me know that word “introvert” I tossed around so loosely, the enemy used to hold me back. I was mind-blown. (Not saying this is the same for all, but this was a specific word for me.) I had to take into consideration everything I was being told, as hard as it was.
Fast forward a couple years later God has not only changed me but He has changed my perspective. I wholeheartedly believe God wants the best for us, and to walk in abundance and our purposes. I also believe when we say “yes” to God and allow Him to bring us to our full potential for His glory, someone else is attached to that. Yes, our healing and our walk with the Lord is ours, but as Christ followers we should be living our everyday life as a ministry.
Jeremiah 1:10 continues, “See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot, and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant”
This verse gave me chills. Not only did God appoint Jeremiah, He has appointed us as well. What a privilege! But, how could I have done such an important job if my fear had gotten the best of me, and If I had continued to shrink in uncomfortable situations. My perspective changed, I had to stop thinking about myself. It was is no longer about me, but about God and His Kingdom. That’s it! I was soon praying, “Here I am Lord, Send me!”
He was so faithful to show up, to work through my messes, my weakness, and I allowed Him to take me where He wanted me to go. As hard as it was, and sometimes still is. God has allowed me to counsel others, encourage and pray for random people in public, or just remind someone how much God loves them. I couldn’t have done that before.
We all have to step out on faith. I pray that that fear would bow In the name of Jesus, and you would all remember, what God is telling you to do may potentially reach and help someone else. Someone out there is trapped in bondage, and you may have the encouragement they need. Someone may have an addiction and your testimony may be the exact thing they need to be delivered, Maybe there is a post-abortive women who is suffering in silence just wants a compassionate listening ear. Or whatever that thing that may be on your heart to do. Do it.
If its placed on your heart, God may have given you that desire. And you have authority to do so through the Holy Spirit. Don’t shrink back. I pray you stand in boldness and confidence. And you will not be standing alone. God will ALWAYS be with you. Praying for you all!
Love and Blessings, Vanessa