From Weeping to Joy

Life rocks us. Sometimes to the point of deep despair. When we find ourselves in those moments we look around and all we see is darkness with no light in sight. A lot of us hit rock bottom and we stay there. Sometimes, because we have been there so long its comfortable, other times it is because we don’t know who to go to for help, or where to start to come out of such depth.

I love Psalm 30 because it tells of a time David was sick. Physically or emotionally, I don’t know, but he need healing. And he received it.

Psalm 30:2 says, ” Oh Lord my God, I cried to you for help, and you have healed me.”

I have been in this situation. There was a time depression had swallowed me up and I had no idea how I would get out of it. I did the only thing I knew to do, and that was to cry out to God, literally. It says right here in these verses, If we cry out to God He WILL restore us (verse 3), HE WILL heal us. I find so much comfort in this. At the moment I had no idea this Psalm existed. I just knew I was hurting, I was tired, and the state I was in couldn’t be it for me and my life. I wanted to be better so bad. I wanted healing and freedom more than anything. And I thank God at that moment I humbled myself enough to bow at the feet of Jesus and cry out to Him. I was restored, I was healed.

I know some of you reading this may be thinking that finding healing is easier said than done. As you see no end in sight. Honestly, it is hard, but it is not impossible. We are stepping out of something we have been in for possibly years, into something new. There is comfort in the hurt we are feeling. Not because hurting is comfortable, but because we have felt it for so long anything else could be a scary and uncomfortable feeling.

“Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning.” -Psalm 30:5

Such a comforting promise of God! Pain is temporary according to God’s word. We know there that there is hope. Here on earth and in heaven! Romans 8:18 states “The pain you have been feeling can’t compare to the joy that is coming” Yes, you’re going through it today, but think about the joy you will experience tomorrow when you look back at all the Lord has brought you through.

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” -James 1:2-4

Instead of wallowing in our pits, God wants us to grow through them. Verse 4 above states, “testing produces perseverance so that we may be mature and complete.” We gain so much on the other side of pain. Our faith in God is strengthened. And praise God, He has delivered us from whatever situation we were in. Our test becomes our testimony. And we will then be able to help someone go through the same struggle we walked through. That is a blessing in itself. I have helped counsel and encourage many because of the pain I have gone through. God doesn’t waste a single hurt.

I pray for all those going through a struggle (as we all are these days) to lean into and press into Jesus. The enemy has you bound and God is waiting to set you free. But we have to want to change. No darkness is too dark for the Lord to find you, and no depth is too deep. Humble yourself and confess your hurt and/or sin to the Lord. That weight you are carrying, cast it on the Lord because He cares for you, 1 Peter 5:7.

Something the Lord spoke to me during my journey,

I am your heavenly Father, willing, and waiting to take your pain away. Remove all guilt, shame, and unforgiveness. Let go of the “what ifs.” Leave your feelings at my feet and begin to walk in the freedom that is waiting for you.

I know God wants to do same for you. Receive it!

Love and blessings, Vanessa


Perfect Timing

“For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” -Ephesians 2:10

Instilled in us long before we were created was a purpose. And even before we came to be, God prepared specific works for each of us to do. Not only that, the generation, the time, and the circumstance we are born into play a part in our grand purpose as well. There is no coincidence to all this.

When the Lord first revealed to me what my purpose was, it was in 2016. I was pretty much told to get a journal and write. And that’s exactly what I did. Soon after that I attempted my first blog post. That experience was not the best. I was frustrated all the time because I just couldn’t pull it together. From there I went back to doing the last thing God had told me to do, which was “just write.”

Although I knew what the Lord had purposed for me, I knew I couldn’t jump ahead of Him. There was so much going on in my life, and in hindsight, I was about to go through so much more. So, I kept writing. Never once questioning what I was told. Fast forward a couple of years later, in prayer God revealed to me where He was taking me baggage couldn’t come. He was telling me to heal before my next instruction from Him.

Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective. -James 5:16

There was so much sin in my heart I was holding on to. So much hurt. How could I help someone if I needed help myself? I found someone I could confide in and pretty much confessed all I had been through. Honestly, not because I wanted to, and I didn’t, but because my obedience to God was worth it. To say a weight lifted off my shoulders is an understatement.

In 2018 I really began to heal. And at times healing hurt more than what I had been through. But God!! All I can say is HE IS ENOUGH!! (But that’s another post. LOL). Through all of that I never stopped writing. And God continued to remind me of what was next.

With all this to say, here we are. 4 years after God revealed to me what I was called to do. My testimony would bring people to the knowledge of Him. As I still write in a journal, blogging for the world is the beginning of His ultimate plan. What I want you all to take from this is, even though I knew in 2016 what I was called to do, it wasn’t time for harvest.

 And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” -Esther 4:14

As I said before, there is a time and a season for all things, including our purpose. I could have totally went ahead of God, but how fruitful would I have been? There was so much I had to learn and grow from. I would have completely messed it up. It wasn’t time. But God had called me, “for such a time as this.”I just want to say for the record, this is not an end all be all, this was my experience and I often hear the same for others as well.

I pray after reading this it would help change your perspective. If you know God’s purpose for you, great! That’s amazing. But know everything is done in His perfect time. Not ours. If you never see a harvest for another 3,5, or 8 years, will you stay faithful to the last thing God told you to do? So often we begin to think like the world, and think that life is a race. Who can succeed the fastest? Don’t get into that mindset. The time for you, is FOR YOU! God will make room for you and your purpose. There will be no competition, or race involved. You will fit in your royal position and season like a glove.

Praying God reveals Himself to you!

Love and Blessings, Vanessa


Humble Hearts

Humility. This is the word that came to mind as I sat in prayer today. We try so hard to be someone we’re not. Claiming to have it all together or presenting ourselves as if we do. But God reminded me of how broken we are without Him. How sinful we are and undeserving.

As I sat at the park and felt the breeze, listening to all of God’s creation around me, I realize how big God is and how small I am. It occurred to me, I often try to put myself on that same level and I was convicted. God created everything in the park that I was in awe over, and at that moment I was reminded that I too am part of that creation.

“When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with the humble is wisdom” -Proverbs 11:2

There is so much truth to this bible verse. What a disgrace I felt once the Lord reminded me that I am the created. He and I are not on the same level. But, boy, do I get in that mindset. Furthermore, I admit to trying to take control more times than not.

I googled the word “pride” and it is described as poison. And I can see that. A prideful attitude can poison relationships of every kind. Especially the one relationship that truly matters. Pride puts a wall between us and our Father. Knowingly or unknowingly we are saying we don’t need God, and we got this thing called life under control.

By no means am I a perfect Christian. I am a broken Christian, with a perfect God. I will continue to boast in my weakness, my flaws, and my need for Him. God gives us wisdom, knowledge, clarity, authority, and so on through His Holy Spirit. It is not by our doing. We can’t even begin to muster up the things that are produced through us. We would get it wrong every time.

Our humble hearts is what God wants. Again, He knows the things we deal with and wants to be included. God knows we need Him, but He will not force a relationship with us.

“HUMBLE yourselves, therefore, under God’s might hand, that He may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you” -1 Peter 5:6-7

I love this verse. Not only is it telling us to cast our anxiety on God, it first tells us to humble ourselves. Meaning comes under the authority of God. Surrender, submit to His ways. Then He will lift us in due time. He wants what’s best for us. To give us life to the fullest. (John 10:10) But how can He if we are full of pride and refuse to surrender to Him. Rest assured, prideful, or humble, God just wants a relationship with you. The King of the world is saying, Come as you are. I pray you take Him up on that invitation.

Love and Blessings, Vanessa


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